Well this month has been incredibly interesting so far. I was hoping that by taking time out for myself I would find a way to balance my life a little more. Well, I still have zero balance. Between working two jobs, juggling friends and family (the Jewish high holidays are not helping right now either) I am still burning my candle at both ends. So while the desired effect of a calmer, more balanced me is not working out to plan, what I do find interesting is howit has manifested itself in other ways of my life.
I do find a small shift in my decision making. By focusing on what I WANT I have found that I am making some choices I didn't think I would. The largest one is that I am looking to move my jewelry studio into the city so I can work more and not have to travel as far. I hadn't really thought seriously about it before. I always kind of reserved the thought to other artists. Well this month I have made that a reality. I am in the process of trying to sign the paperwork so that I could be able to have a studio in the city.
I feel like this is such a great step forward for me. I never thought that this would be the outcome of my putting myself first but it seems so natural I can't believe it took me this long to figure it out.
I also feel kinda of empowered by the decisions I have made that are cavalier in the recent past that has given me new confidence to make this step as well. While on the fence about this all, I started to tough talk myself. The most compelling argument I made to myself was that how could the girl who backpacked around Italy by herself be afraid to rent a studio. It seemed like a cop-out and I didn't want to be a person who would short change my own dreams out of unreasonable fears. This empowerment made me feel really good about what I am doing as well as my entire happiness project in general. To push boundaries is what this is all about and I can't wait to break more down!
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