When I decided to try and take a month to take time for myself I had amazing visions of doing yoga every morning, meditating in the evening, eating fresh produce and cooking at home more. This however is not at all how the month has been going so far. I was inspired to take time for myself as I was starting to get a bit sick. I was hoping that by taking things a little slower now I would hopefully avoid the run down sickness I get every winter. What has actually happened is that I have taken it as an excuse to slack of from life. All of a sudden me taking a nap at 3pm is totally fine as it is 'me time.' I have used my new excuse of 'me time' to do plenty of things that are not helpful to future Rachel at all.
I have decided that me time needs to be redefined to be a specific series of appropriate activities. I feel like I need to do more to help out future Rachel then just appease present Rachel. That is what the focus should be.
Me time means doing the things I want to do but never have time for. With this in mind I am also laying down stipulations about what is allowed for me time. For now on anything that has to do with relaxation or a simple treat for me is acceptable. No more naps or avoiding work that needs to be done. Furthering my joy in life is not about simply doing what lazy me would do. I need to work a little harder then what I am doing now. Sometimes doing what is good for you isn't about doing something that is fun. I need to step up.
I understand completely! I was struggling with that as well. I think what might help is making a list of what IS acceptable to do during "Rachel Time." Things that are somewhat indulgent, but make you happy that you're productive. Then if you don't feel like doing yoga, you can take a look at your list and see if there's anything else on there that you might want to do with your time. :)
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